Has Anyone Else Used Illegal Stimulants And Then Discovered Why Later Life When You Were Diagnosed With Nargosy
Has Anyone Else Used Illegal Stimulants And Then Discovered Why Later Life When You Were Diagnosed With Nargosy
Don't judge me. This coming September I will have 4 years clean and sober. Since I was 25 and I have abused methamphetamine. And it didn't really get me high it just allowed me to function and do things that everyone else was doing my age. Has anyone else found that they were literally self-medicating with stimulants?
So I'm a 70's child. Growing up getting high was a way of life and taking stimulants was as well. I wasn't diagnosed until Early 90's. By then I was burning through a pound to two pounds of weed a month and taking stimulants to get through work. In the 90's I wanted to get sober due to a very long story. I quit but when you go through that much drugs the dealers think your just cutting back. It took another 3 years to truly get off. By then the symptoms were crushing and I was a mess. I went to see a doctor and he put me on Ritalin and black beauties. After a year and a half and many increases of dosage I got terrified of loosing my license so I wold lie to the doctor about what I did, hoe I felt, and made it look like I didn't have a job when I had 5 jobs. Haven't been back to that doctor since and when I collapsed from pneumonia and saw a new doctor I spun a story and never told about the problem.
I switch from stimulants that can get me in jail to caffeine. I went from black beauties to yellow jackets to diet pills, to what I used to call liquid death (120 shots of espresso where you chug til your awake), and now I do energy gum. So I'm still self medicating.
First of all.. Congratulations to you on 4 yrs clean & sober.... Thats not easy trust me I know all about it to well...
Secondly, at first I seriously thought I would just fall asleep from being up on my feet for 2 days in a row.. but then it started happening even after id slept for 3 days in a roe.. Litterly not getting out the bed once but to use the bathroom & right back to bed.. its now got to the point where I'm scared to even get away from my home cause I'm afraid I'll fall asleep somewhere & that the cops will be called & they will probably think im under the influence when I'm not...
Bronkaid pills are the only medicine I've found to be effective. ... Unfortunately tolerance will develope.
